As i sit in my cubicle space listening to some evanescence (whisper). I said to my self. what am i doing with my life. Yknow like really what is my goal, what have i been set here to do. Away from money i realized that my mind was blank.. I’ve been brain washed by society, friends, and hardships of life i guess to only having one thing on my mind… MONEY truely is the root of evil, and sadly we all need it just to get by.

I’m tired of my daily routines to tell you the truth. Work isn’t much fun any more and the wonderful friends that I have at work.. aren’t all that wonderful. there’s really maybe 2 of them, How long will these friendships last I dont know?? What i’m saying really is right now.. i really dont know what i’m doing with my life.

I was reading afrodite’s blog a few days ago and i definatly picked one thing out of it that i must do.. stop taking my family for granted.. i think i rely on my friends mor ethan my family, I mean i’m kinda harsh on my mom and lil bro at times and he’s only….. I dont even remember his age.. how horrid right.. i dunno any more man.. i’m gonna die and leave this all eventually anyway. This wave of depression might just send me where i’m going sooner than later. I’ve been having really bad dreams as of late there is no happiness. Yesterday morning before my mom left for work.. i called her and i hugged her.. something that before that i honestly dont knwo when i did it.. if i ever did it since i was 19.. :(. my brother i’ve started talking to more.. even though were like yars apart i’m trying to find some common ground to speak to him on.. cuase the age gap between us will never be reduced.. maybe i can get him into a few th8ings that i like.. photography maybe.. i dunno… I’m thinking of planning little hobbies and trips for us all in the future.. maybe that’ll bring a gilimer of light back into my life cause i need it.. i definatly need it.. whatever “it” is i know its missing.

Relationships i no longer fuss over i’ve been single for as long as i can remember maybe highschool. I’ve cut out the want / need to be with someone behaviour. Some people are just meant to be alone i dunno when i want companionship i generally have those kind of “girl friends” to call on, and no i dont just mean sex. um..right now i’m just staring at the flourescent light rod in the cieling and typing.. when i move my head i’m sure i’ll be blind.. or see that light spot for a few hours… lol.. i kinda needed to not see anybody in my office while righting this to clear my head. i know this might seem jumbled but.. its how my brain is worki at the moment pretty un organized i need to straighten stuff out..

um.. whenever

If your a tech junkie like me or just someone that always buys stuff from abroad instead of locally then you’ll definatly love this one.. Its a virtual visa card. Transfer your own funds from your account to the card and spend all you want cause you knwo its your money and you aint gotta worry about no bill.. cause your spendign what you have.. and not credit. check it out epayservicesjm a few people i know are already making thier purchase and stuff with it. so i guess no longer do i have to worry about finding a friend with money on his or her credit card.. i can just use my own

 This kid i know called linkin has been making up noise about the new linkin park album already.. here’s an excerpt from a pot he made on animesynergy

Minutes to Midnight is Linkin Park’s upcoming third studio album, scheduled for release on May 14, 2007 worldwide, with the exception of North America where it will be released on May 15. Fans chomping at the bit for Linkin Park’s third album will have to wait a little bit longer — specifically until May 15, when ‘Minutes to Midnight’ hits shelves. But the band assures fans that the new material will be worth the four-year wait.

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This is like aterm or your normal terminal on steroids. its tabbed its got transparency its the shizzzniiiitttttt

but the home and end keys dont work on default.. here’s what you might need to know

Q: How to use the Home/End key to move the cursor to the beginning/
	end of the current command line? When I press the Home/End key, a
	~ character is displayed.

	A: It depends on your shell setting. If you set the terminal type
	is set to `xterm' (mrxvt default since 0.4.0), put the following
	lines in ~/.cshrc (if your shell is tcsh) or ~/.zshrc (if your
	shell is zsh):

		bindkey "\e[1~" beginning-of-line
		bindkey "\e[4~" end-of-line

	Put the following lines into ~/.inputrc (if your shell is bash):

		"\e[1~": beginning-of-line
		"\e[4~": end-of-line

	If your terminal type is set to `rxvt', replace `1' with `7', and
	`4' with `8' in the above lines.

	Thanks to Jowex at users.sourceforge.net for contributing the
	answer.

Many of the times this is what hold people back from their operating system migration.. Here’s an interesting site that i’ve found linuxeq.com basically it means linux equivalent.. so it will give you the equivalent of photoshop for pc / mac in linux which would work out to be gimp.. I like it haven’t really used it yet since all i need is already in nix.

There’s a nast bug with beryl i think its more a bug with xgl-server. when the combination of shift and backspace is pressed it kills the gnome session and returns me to gdm’s login screen This is what i used to fix it

xmodmap -e "keycode 22 = BackSpace"

type that in your terminal and hit return and your done

Finally i have beryl up and running here’s how i did it all manual no simple install script

beryl-project Before going there you gotta ensure that you got the proper video card drivers installed.. if your an ati person like me, you’ll need to get the linux ati drivers from ati.amd.com Then from there proceed to the beryl project site for the beryl install instructions and patches.

Here’s a nice overall of how to set up ubuntu linux from scratch on a dell inspiron 6400

here we go guys.. just follow these steps and you should have all you need to get your wireless working

1. choose a location in your home folder for all downloads, such as wireless drivers, etc.
2. download latest ndiswrapper: ndiswrapper 1.23
3. place downloaded file somewhere in a folder in your home folder and using terminal CD into that folder
4. tar xvzf ndiswrapper-1.23.tar.gz
5. cd ndiswrapper-1.23
6. sudo gedit /etc/modprobe.d/blacklist
7. blacklist bcm43xx at the end of the file
8. sudo make uninstall
9. make
10. sudo make install
11. download drivers here: Dell Wireless Drivers
12. place downloaded file somewhere in a folder in your home folder and using terminal CD into that folder
13. tar xvzf bcmdrivers.tar.gz
14. cd bcmdrivers
15. sudo ndiswrapper -i bcmwl5.inf
16. sudo ndiswrapper -m
17. sudo modprobe ndiswrapper (you should see the wireless light come on)
18. dmesg
19. reboot